Rage, Rage

Though He slay me, I will hope in Him. Nevertheless I will argue my ways before Him. ~Job 13:15

I got the results from my biopsy today. Turns out that the abnormality that was picked up on my nuclear image last week was benign. So, my week of prayer and tears and nervousness was all for nought, right? I don't think so. As much as I hate those scary, vulnerable moments, I also think they have a certain beauty. During the past week, I was raw and honest and scared before the Lord. I played out worst case scenarios in my mind. I battled the bitterness of the "unfair" things that were happening to me. I prayed and worried and tried to distract myself. And I felt a little bit of what it means to suffer in the face of the unknown.

I pray that this experience has taught me a lasting lesson in empathy. I pray that the good news I received today will motivate me to spread Good News to others. Despite my angst, I was never without hope. I know that not everyone knows that kind of hope for themselves.