So...What's It Like?
>> Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I'm only twelve weeks along, so I think only the most astute eye could tell that I'm pregnant. But I certainly feel pregnant.
I think what has surprised me the most so far is this sense that I've been here before. Early pregnancy feels a lot like my first (and only) really big, scary lupus flare-up. Not in terms of fevers and joint pain, because thankfully I don't have those. But, in terms of the fatigue and limited energy and the sense that I need to get back into the habit of counting my spoons. In terms of the general feeling of illness that I have.
I find myself dragging down the hall at work feeling brain-foggy and run-down, and it takes me back to when I had first returned to law school after taking a semester off due to my illness. I walked more slowly. I did everything more slowly, and everything--reading, grocery shopping, doing laundry, walking around the neighborhood--took more effort and energy.
On Sunday, it took me at least four hours to clean the apartment, when I used to be able to zip through in about two hours max. I have to take breaks. I have to take naps.
Right now, pregnancy feels a lot like lupus. I'm tired, and really looking forward to that second trimester that everyone says is so much easier.
5 comments:
actually this is good news.. you have reached 12 weeks - you are tired for a reason!
Your body needs all the energy it can get - so if you are tired FOR GOODNESS sakes - rest.
Now is a good time to plan getting your husband to share some of the household tasks...
Hearing you compare the first trimester to lupus reaffirms my belief that maternity leave should be allowed in the first trimester too. My first trimester was awful! Far worse than it was with Isaiah. I actually ended up losing weight.
I agree with Ahavah - make sure you are getting rest and drinking plenty. Oh - and stop doing four hours worth of cleaning lol. Thats what Hubby is for - especially now. The end of the horrid first trimester is in sight. While the second trimester isnt sunshine and roses - you can at least function.
I guess I missed the post where you told us that you have lupus. The "spoon" post was very helpful.
I agree with the others. Rest when you can. You must stay strong and as "healthy" as you can.
I will be praying for you.
Hang in there, sweet friend. You looked completely worn out after our walk. I hope you got good rest after the fact. :) Hannah was talking about you last night to Brian. :)
Thanks everyone! I'm hanging in there!
@Jessica: I slept for like two hours after you guys left! :)
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