So...What's It Like?

I'm only twelve weeks along, so I think only the most astute eye could tell that I'm pregnant. But I certainly feel pregnant.

I think what has surprised me the most so far is this sense that I've been here before. Early pregnancy feels a lot like my first (and only) really big, scary lupus flare-up. Not in terms of fevers and joint pain, because thankfully I don't have those. But, in terms of the fatigue and limited energy and the sense that I need to get back into the habit of counting my spoons. In terms of the general feeling of illness that I have.

I find myself dragging down the hall at work feeling brain-foggy and run-down, and it takes me back to when I had first returned to law school after taking a semester off due to my illness. I walked more slowly. I did everything more slowly, and everything--reading, grocery shopping, doing laundry, walking around the neighborhood--took more effort and energy.

On Sunday, it took me at least four hours to clean the apartment, when I used to be able to zip through in about two hours max. I have to take breaks. I have to take naps.

Right now, pregnancy feels a lot like lupus. I'm tired, and really looking forward to that second trimester that everyone says is so much easier.

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Road to Recovery

I've mentioned Anissa Mayhew before. She is a thirty-something blogger who suffered a massive stroke back in November. According to her husband's updates, Anissa is making good progress toward recovery, and will even being going home soon. Their next challenge, however, is the outpatient care that will cost them $100-per-day for forty days. In his most recent update, Peter Mayhew is asking his kind and generous blog readers to donate just $10 to help with Anissa's care.

Having been diagnosed with a chronic illness, I know first-hand how medical bills can accumulate quickly and make life extremely difficult. If you also know what that's like (or can at least imagine it), please consider helping out the Mayhew family. It's always a blessing to bless someone else.

Click here for more information on how you can help.

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...and knowing is half the battle

i quit.

my photo-a-day project, i mean. i got to the point where i just couldn't do it anymore. i'm allergic to photography these days. i've got other things on my mind.

such as growing a baby.

a mere seven days after i so boldly proclaimed that i had never been in the family way, i found out that i was indeed with child. life is funny, ennit?

Lord willing, robyn jr. will be making his/her appearance in early september.

now you know.

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Rockin' that 365...?

So, I'm still doing my photo-a-day project. But, I have a bit of a backlog when it comes to uploading said photos. I can barely muster up the enthusiasm to click the shutter, so uploading and editing the photos is just too much to ask of me right now. When I decided to start this project, I thought it was going to be so much fun and creativity every day. Never-ending ideas, etc., etc. Yeah, not so much. If anything, this project has turned into one of those life-lessons about stick-to-it-iveness despite the various moods I may be in. (Actually, it's just one mood--nauseous aversion to anything I used to think was fun.)

In other, unrelated news, I watched Temple Grandin this weekend. If you have HBO, you should set some time aside to see it for yourself. I was reflecting on the movie as I drove back to work during my lunch break, and I thought, "Claire Danes rocked it." She really did. Then, I thought, I would love to be good enough at something that someday someone will say, "Robyn rocked it." I definitely don't think I've earned that accolade yet.

But anyway, when is the last time you rocked it? Don't be shy. Brag about yourself.

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Winter Doldrums

I have no pep, no zest for life.
The thought of taking photos nauseates me.
The internet bores me. (Gasp!)
I think I need some sunshine
and maybe a trip to somewhere I've never been.
Spring, please come soon.

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